The Pursuit of Happiness

What will it take? What will it honestly take to make me happy? What am I missing….why do I feel so imcomplete.  Things honestly are going really great for me right now. Really….I mean I have a great job…two actually…Im moving into a new place, I just bought new furniture, I just got a brand new car.  But why….why when i lay my head on my pillow at night, I feel….something….a huge something….is missing….Im not happy.  And its not depression, not that at all….I just…know…that there is something…that I am supposed to have, but I dont. I must find it…this is starting to sound funny…i know…hehehe….but seriously.  I am a very happy person, I really am…but I still feel…like Im not complete. Its kinda like buying a new car, you love the way it looks, the way it smells, how big the engine is…you will still be very happy, but not as happy as you would be….even only you had gas to put in it.  hehe…not saying that I want gas or anything..    But you know what I mean.  One day I will find it….one day……

4 comments April 6, 2007